how long is this going to carry on?

One of the things that i have resolved to do during this period of isolation is not to become obsessed with the news. I have a tendency to put on the BBC News’s Channel for the whole time. But i began to realise that this was not a good idea for my mental health – it was causing me to worry excessively. So i have made the decision that all I would watch was the Downing Street press conference each day.

Now I’m not so sure that is a good idea!

I tuned in last evening as usual, and the statement from the 1st Secretary was fine, usual stuff really. But when Proff Chris Witty began my heart dropped. He intimated, but did not say that we would be in some for mock down for the foreseeable and that it would affect some people more than others. I took it to mean that those that are shielding, like myself would be in total lockdown until we found a vaccine and or drugs and that he vaccines is still many months away.shit! I thought, that’s me stuck in my flat fro the next year. Then the depression really took over and as usual i began to catastrophe. What if they do not find a safe vaccine that works? What if they never find any drugs that are safe and work? After all, scientists have been searching for a cure and a vaccine for the common cold and have never found one.

Then it got worse. What if nothing has been found by the winter, this up coming winter eight months away. Then it becomes flu season. Can you imagine the devastation that a combination of flu and Covid-19 could/would cause?

What makes matters even worse is that i live on my own. I can literally go four more than a week with out seeing anyone to talk to. I talk to people yeah, every day and video call as well, but is just not the same as seeing some one face to face, in fact it could be argued that it is worse as all it does is really ram the situation that the planet finds itself home, and home hard.The thought of having to stay completely locked down for a further year, petrifies me. I’m a big television fan and subscribe to every streaming service that i can. I have BT television, prime tv Netflix, NOW tv and as from today Disney plus. At the moment I am not subscribed to Britbox, but watch this space! Having said all of that, i can only watch so much television.

Another thing about being stuck inside all the time is that it not only affects my mental well being, but al;o my physical well being. I suffer with a bowel problem, after Christmas, of this year my bowel became fully implanted and I did not pass a motion for almost 5 weeks. I tell you I have not experienced pain like it in my life and i live with pain all the time (fibromyalgia), but this was simply horrible. Anyway, i wont go into details but it require hospital treatment to resolve the situation. it has left me with a a recurring bowel problem. One of the ways to get and please pardon the expression, things moving is exercise. This was made abundantly clear at the time of my hospital admission. I live in a one bedroom flat and according to the rules of shielding, i am not allowed out to walk. Because of my heart condition, veery short walks and I do mean short walks is just about all i can do. You try walking around your flat to exercise, its not really possible.

Right that’s enough crappy stuff, going to stop now. I’m going to switch on you tube and a have a singa long session with my choir leader, on line yes, but its great fun.

Again, i have not checked this, so please excuse any obvious typos!!

Laters!